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Katelyn is the definition of love

August 22nd, 2016 (03:38 pm)
loved

current mood: loved
current song: Somebody - Depeche Mode

I'm in love. Always have been, really, but finally back with the one I know is my true love. I never stopped loving her and now that we're together my love for her just keeps growing and growing. She's beautiful, cute, funny, and sweet; she melts my heart. We're making plans on moving in together and I can't wait to start our new lives together, but before that, I'm going to visit her in November for her birthday. I'm really nervous and excited at the same time. I love her more than ramen, if you can believe it! Even now, as I type this, my arms ache to hold her. I know it sounds sappy and lovey dovey, but I don't care. I've really never been more happy. I've found my Somebody.

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Bored...

February 5th, 2013 (05:29 am)

I know I haven't used this much in a long time, so I'm wondering if I should keep using this or something else. I already have a facebook where I put down my thoughts, but it's not exactly a journal thing. Huh, I just remembered I should probably delete my twitter. I don't really like it and I don't see the point, what with the shitty character limit. yeah, I know I sometimes don't type more than 140 characters on facebook already, but sometimes I do and I like having that breathing room.

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I'm done.....

February 3rd, 2013 (12:18 am)
current mood: Broken

I just want to die. It's not fair. I pray and beg for happiness and the one i love, but all I get is cruelty and a broken heart. Though I was already not very religious, but this just sealed it, I renounce whatever little beliefs I had. I hate her dad, I hate "him," but most of all, I hate myself for being so stupid and not putting my anger aside. why did I have to be so stupid? I wish so much that I could go back and fix things and make things better. It's just not fair that things get taken from me when I'm at my happiest. I'm done with relationships and love. There's only one person I love and I've lost that. I can't see myself loving anyone else and I just can't see myself with anyone else. I know you may be thinking that that's what everyone says after a break up, but if you knew me and the feelings I've had for her and how strong they are, you would know that I'm dead serious. and it feels worse when it feels I'm being shut out of her life too. I still beg not to and I don't want to. I really need a friend right now. I just can't stop wondering what went wrong and why? what changed? What's wrong with me? why does this have to happen? I'm an idiot...

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(no subject)

December 24th, 2012 (06:06 am)

I'm wondering if anyone of my friends are still on here. :/

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November 2nd, 2011 (06:10 pm)

Stupid annoying spam!

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I fucking hate living here.

September 21st, 2011 (07:08 pm)

I found out Vons was hiring. What I heard, there was a strike looming and they were hiring to fill in position, I guess. So, I went Friday to pick up an application. I filled it out and decided to wait the next week to turn it in because I've always been told that it's best to turn it in during the weekday, not the weekend. I went early this morning (again, something I've been told to do to look good) and after asking for the manager so that I can turn it in to the manager personally, he turns me away saying that everything was settled on Monday. What the fuck universe???? Why don't you just kill me already if you don't want me to make a living? I was already upset enough, but what really pissed me off was how condescending the manager was with me. "You haven't heard?" he tells me. "Everything was settled on Monday. it's over, we aren't looking for anybody, so hold on to that (refering to the application in my outstretched hand) do what you want with it. Want a job, apply online." It may not sound bad typed up, but he had such a condescending tone.

It pisses me off that every time there's a job opportunity, I either don't know about it; when I know about, it's one week too late (my dad's fault); or when I actually do something about it, this bullshit happens. Seriously, I'm getting tired of this. I want to get out of here, but I can't because I don't have money, I can't get money because I don't have a job, and I can't get a job because of there bullshit and you just can't find any here, it seems.

P.S. My dad's fault because he told me this orientation for a new store that was going to open and would be taking applicants during the orientation. Thing is, he forgot and didn't tell me about it until a week after he found out and it had ended.

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Why?

September 4th, 2011 (02:19 am)
current location: Enigma - I love you, I'll kill you
current mood: Lonely/depressed

I can't explain why, there is a reason I don't want to talk about, but I just got hit with a rush of loneliness and depression...

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Oops.

September 4th, 2011 (02:08 am)
melancholy

current mood: melancholy
current song: The Cranberries - Linger

I've almost forgotten to update on the bank situation. I've been busy and a tad exhausted from school. Well, things were resolved the next day; it happened rather easily in fact. What I was going to ask for, them returning my check, they did. I had to zero-out my account - since I was over seventy dollars over drawn, I had to put in seventy-five (the seventy, plus the five to keep the account open) to zero-out my balance. Then, they returned the check.

School's been fun this semester so far. I'm taking a photoshop class, which is fun, but it's kinda hard because I don't have a camera and I don't have money to get one. I'm really enjoying math too. Well, the reading is boring, but actually working with it I like.

I've been wondering if I should delete my livejournal. I mostly use facebook and there's a journal-type feature on it too, though I've never used it. I kinda don't want to delete it because I like livejournal and I've got history with it. But I have memories too.

I don't know.

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Dammit, my parents fucked me over!

August 22nd, 2011 (04:07 am)

Not intentionally of course. They asked me to deposit a check for 288 for my mom in my account and take out 280 of the money. I told them I was sure if I could do that but they insisted that I could. So fine, I did just that: deposit check, take out money. I check my account the next day and they fucking took 288 bucks out of my account, effectively overdrawing me. What the fuck, they didn't bother calling me? I'm going to the bank tomorrow and they better fucking give me my money back or at least return the check.

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(no subject)

August 16th, 2011 (04:43 am)

Sigh. I don't want to talk about what's happened lately. So I'll just talk about tonight. I'm tired of living here. Can't even get a job. I've missed so many opportunities because of it and so many activities I want to do like going to the Comic-Con or simply just getting out of here for the day. Also, I saw this really cute chick at the store; I felt like melting, but I couldn't do anything because I don't have a job. At the same time, I just can't get certain things out of my mind. Living here is just eating away at me. I don't want to get out of here - I need to get out of here.

I spoke to my English teacher last semester. We were talking about what I wanted to do. I told her I was planning on switching to a History major, although I did wish the school here offered Culinary Arts. When I mentioned that, she told me about a school in San Diego that her daughter, I think it was, went to. She said it was a good school and that there was a hotel that always hires from there. She told me that the hotel would provide room and board while working there and that they would send me around the country, which sounded nice as I could see different places. After I would be moved around a bit, they would give me a choice of where I would want to stay. At least, this is what my English teacher told me what happened with her daughter. I don't know. It's tempting and sound too good to be true. I may try it out if I can scrounge up some money and get out of here.

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